Wednesday, November 16, 2016

placed in our hands

words that bleed
when our pens are our hearts
placed in our hands
when we feel like 
caged birds
trapped inside our minds
battling the voices
of self doubt 
and we're dying to 
have just one 
opportunity 
to show the ones we love
that our intentions are pure
and though we feel weak
at the realization 
of this worlds 
cruelty 
and the reality
of life,

we are still the artists,
the musicians
the poets
the ones daring not 
to be indifferent
standing with shaking
hands 
facing the darkness
in others, 
in this world;
in us.

we are the ones 
who fought bravely
creating
beauty in the midst
of chaos
though we were young
and some may say we
are reckless to love
so fiercely. 

but who are we?
when our 
hearts are barely
even beating
now.
exhausted with the 
weight of 
forgiving those
who've hurt us,
and still believing
that there is a 
god out there 
who loves us enough
to stand with us 
in our trials
and in our fight 
against sin 
and in our pain,
in our confusion
in our desperate need
for honesty.

and we know that 
although our
hearts may bleed
and we are indeed proven
to be weak,
there is power
in the everlasting
promise 
that Jehovah's grace
is sufficient.

even for us. 

paper thin

if my blood were ink
than i'd only bleed
when words were knives
cutting into my
paper thin skin
in the sleepless 
dead of night,
when they
refuse to leave my mind.

and all i see is black
dripping from my hands
and the horror, 
of my heart still throbbing.

the words 
bleed together
until 
all i have left of this is
my still grasping heart 
as the agony 
grows worse
 i can't stop
 loving.

there is a sense 
of there being such a 
small distance between
the words 
and the one who holds
the pen
that i wonder if 
they aren't really
just the same.

where does the beauty stop 
and the pain begin?

if my heart is seeping
if i am covered in this ink, 
no this blood,
of these wounds
then how is it still
beating
aching 
begging 

grasping for just a hint 
of a sign 
that i'm not actually 
alone again.

Thursday, November 3, 2016

spirit of truth

empty eyes
staring into the 
darkness
blind to the brokenness 
they come from.

dead souls 
unaware of the 
tugging
 the call 
to the light,
and freedom.

chains
around weak bones
and sunken eyes
and 
they, they are living
in such misery.
talking to the very voices
that lie inside their heads,
raising their children 
though they can't see they're 
already broken; dead. 

and they, 
they carry a heaviness 
with them; 
inside them.

they're always seeking 
the high, 
even though they know 
that once they come down,
the low is almost unbearable.
and they, 
have concluded
that this is who they are. 

and i see them.
through the eyes of our messiah,
i see them.
and i see their misery
i see every chain
and the weight that 
bondage has on their 
broken, wounded souls.

and something inside me
screams.
screams a desperate plea
for the lost people
in the cities 
that glorify
darkness
 and 
wickedness,
and somewhere
 deep inside,
a little girl weeps 
for the broken.
she remembers what the 
spirit of truth spoke 
to her so long ago.

and my heart is still aching 
with the burden for the ones 
who have not known the love 
of our savior 
of a god who died
for the ones given over 
to the devil and enslaved
in the chains that they do not 
even know.

and i cannot shut out 
the cry of my heart
for the ones 
that do not know the truth.

the messiahs heart breaks
a thousand times, 
for them.
and my heart will not
be silent 
not when death 
is still snatching 
away person after person 
who does not know;
that they were 
created for 
something more.