when one cannot weep silently

there's a girl who cannot say a word

for the strength to speak again

is nowhere to be found,

amidst this raw and horrific 

emotion that keeps convincing her 

that if she allows herself

to feel anything at all,

she'll drown.

there's a girl that cannot keep

the wound that's throbbing 

from bleeding all over that

living room floor, in front of

friends and family

and people who barely 

know her.

as the tears fall from her eyes

and she holds her knees to her chest,

two words echo in her mind, 

over and over again,

"weep silently", she begs herself

as the pain falls onto her cheeks

ripping right through her.

the sound of a heart breaking 

is not one you'll soon forget.

disbelief and agony all

caught up in her shaking shoulders 

and desperate efforts to 

catch her breath.

the sound of someone breaking 

for the weight of all their burdens 

is not a pretty one.

they'll sound as if the honesty is 

being choked out of them,

as if they're fighting to keep it 

inside of them.

grasp onto this, there is one 

who sees all things; 

no matter how many people do not 

believe, there was indeed a witness

that bitter day.

those crimson eyes so full of 

truth and love will not simply forget,

nor will they allow any injustice 

when He comes back to judge with 

mercy and righteousness.

for He requires blood, for iniquities

there is only one who can heal us,

only one true atonement.

there is one who interceded,

and yet my heart breaks as i say this,

"why does he not want Him?".

for can't he see that there is

is so much joy in being free?

there's a girl who carries the burden 

of a love far stronger than any 

despair or bitterness that may claw

at her, trying desperately to consume her,

a love that calls saying,

"my dear, forgiveness is the only way".

there's a girl so exhausted for the cruelty

this broken world is, she begs Him to 

let her be done loving. 

to be free of this burden for 

the broken and the wounded,

a burden she carries everywhere,

while they stand in their sin and 

refuse to return to the Fathers mercies.

He says, "I've never given up on you".

there's a girl who knows this is far from 

over, though He's allowed her this burden,

the strength of her heart is the promises 

He's made and the way He's 

shown us so perfectly, what true love is.